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Great! I’m still alive 👏

Great! I’m still alive 👏

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“I’m still learning how to stop apologizing for all that I am; I wear my skin like a blanket that’s never been able to keep you warm enough and Mom always used to say if you stay out in the cold, you’re gonna get sick, I don’t want you getting sick, please, don’t get sick of me. I’m wearing out my I’m sorry’s like my dignity’s on clearance but please hear me, they’ve got me mislabeled. I’m not trying to sell anything, I’m just trying to keep you around. And I know that the sound of the same syllables over and over can become like your favorite melody ruined by your alarm clock telling you to wake up to nothing ever changing, but I’m trying, and I’m afraid of what happens when the music stops playing. I hope my I love you’s never stop making your heartbeat do pirouettes along your ribcage. I hope my sadness doesn’t replace my name on your Caller ID, I hope that you remember that this isn’t me, that my genetics fell on a fault line and my happiness fluctuates on the days of the week, but I still love you with every tremor in every earthquake of my universe. I love you when I go away; when I am nothing but tired eyes and chapped lips and empty, and empty, when I force you to cradle my missed calls against your cheek because I’ve adopted an impediment in positive speech, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that we had to drive back to the house on Tuesday when I forgot to take my pills, and I’m sorry that I’m not up for going out tomorrow, I’m sorry that my mind wanders sometimes when you tell me about your day, I- I do want to hear about your day, I am so sorry and yeah, I’m still learning how to stop apologizing, baby, but I still love you, so hard. Mainly, I’m just – mainly, I’m just sorry for being selfish enough to ask you to stay.”
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